Going to Oporto I knew it was my last chance to prepare for the massive decision I've made a few months ago of going to travel Europe solo for five months. I went to support a friend and the fact she didn't had that much time to spend the day wandering the city with me, forced me to do it all by myself, and I can't complain about it. Wandering solo around a city I didn't know was a challenge and I had a small taste of what's coming next year!
I still don't believe I'm actually going away alone for such a long period of time, and that I'll be forced to come out of my shell and totally out of my comfort zone to make a dream come true.
I've always had my life kinda planned with studies and crap, and to be fair, I've always felt way too young to be making life changing decisions about my future, and because of it I always ended up regretting the path I've chosen and that led me to be stuck at University for 3,5 years studying something that doesn't tell me anything and that has been the hardest thing I ever had to do (or one of them at least), since every day is a struggle and I can't put into words the amount of effort I've put into this stupid course to simply finish it and be free to finally do something for myself, and this time something that I actually like.
I remember having 18 and talking to my friends about going on an Interrail for the summer, and told them it sucked I had to wait for them to all turn 18 (because they are all younger than me), and after 4 years all of them turned 18 and none ever talked about going anywhere. Let's face it, people have different priorities in life, and just because I have this urge to travel the world doesn't mean others have it to - which they don't! And well, I was pissed...
Mum, dad... I know you worry, I understand, trust me, I worry too, but I know I'll be just fine! Please, don't try to scare me by telling me that the countries I'm going are at war (which by the way, they aren't!) or that I'm unconscious for doing this, that normal people go on a week or two vacation and they don't do this (ahm...really? Just spend a few minutes with me on the computer and I'll show you duzens!), or that I shouldn't go to Croatia because it's really cold (yup, according to my adorable dad Croatia is near Poland and I will freeze to death) or that Bosnia is at war and is a very complicated country (no mum...no, no,no!). Trust me, I'll be carefull about all these things, I even gave up Turkey (just this once because of all the crap going on at Turkey/Syria boarder and I don't feel okay going there now alone), but please support me, don't scare me, because I already am and I'm also perfectly aware of what I am going to do, but scared or not, this is what I want and I'm going.